Letter to you “The memory of the just is blessed:……..” Proverbs‬ ‭10‬:‭7‬ ‭KJV‬‬ Dear Mum, Since June, I have been reflecting on the past years and it feels like a long time ago since we lost you. It’s now long 5 years. I hardly talk about you and even when I do, I usually refer you in the present tense because mom it feels unreal you are gone or maybe its you being too precious to let go. So I hold on to the remembrance of your voice, stories and wisdom as much as I can. Every time I see your picture, I touch your face and get lost in thought. With each year, have had to learn navigating through the ups and downs without you. The ups feel incomplete and sometimes tasteless, while the downs are hard without your shoulder to lean on and your reassurance that all will be well. Although your absence has left a huge hole to fill, now I think it is selfish to wish you stayed. You had endured a lot, I mean a lot and remained always strong. Through it all, it felt like we were more troubled than you; you hardly shedded a tear but we all did because we loved you and will always will. People love talking about your large heart and your selfless acts of service, it’s a marvel you are my mom and your legacy still lives. Forever grateful for the life well lived and the work you started is continued. Mom, it’s not been all bad/crazy since you left. In the midst of the despair, anger, shock and disbelief, something beautiful within me came alive. Don’t know how but maybe the brokenness opened up new things in me and I wish I could tell you all about it because you saw it all first. Nonetheless, there will a time to discuss it, maybe you give me the lazy smile. Finally, mom, the Lord has been faithful and now I understand your reliance on Him, more than ever before. Based on your last words to me, I remain your “Omo mummy”. Sun re with love.

Always and will be loved

It's strange but the more the years go by, the more I think about you. You haven't faded from my heart and you won't.